The first order of business as an actress or an artist of any kind is to dream.
This usually begins when you are very little, and unless it is squashed, the dream grows from there. This dream is the pure form of what we wish to be. What we want to manifest in our lives. I remember so clearly when I was about 5 years old watching the movie musical "Singin' In The Rain" and wanting to jump inside the screen and literally be in the movie. I wanted to do everything that Debbie Reynolds was doing, and be married to Gene Kelly! I remember this vividly. From then on, the life of being a movie musical star was my dream. My first real dream of what I wanted to be. As soon as I realized those movies didn't exist anymore, that dream started to fade.
Sadly many of us have huge dreams that we have allowed to fade. We spend the rest of our lives trying to tap back into that pure childhood love of what we want out of life. Those childhood dreams were held so high in our hearts and brought such joy to our spirit! If only we could all be given the chance to shine so brightly and fulfill even a bit of those dreams....what a different world this would be?
We lose sight of these pure limitless dreams because of outside beliefs, societal domesticating, and massive rejection. But some people believe so blindly in themselves, even these immense challenges won't stop them from dreaming. They let the obstacles fuel them. They will do almost anything to make those dreams a reality. And sometimes what they choose to do is reckless, emotionally scarring and morally low. Some don't even go that far, let any rejection consume them, and they end up giving up their dreams before they even try.
I have been on both sides of this coin. I have fought hard, worked harder and fulfilled a checklist of dreams that lifted me up and made me happier than I had ever been in my life. And I am now trying to rekindle that feeling in me, remember my pure childhood dreams and be joyous. Regardless of the realities of responsibilities (rent, bills, children) or my own obstacles (rejection, age, gender, ability). I am blindly believing in myself again....not that they will all necessarily come true...I mean, I can't marry Gene Kelly....but I dream simply because it is good for my soul.
And I dream without swaying my moral compass, I dream from a happy joyous place, it has served me well in the past and it will feed my spirit in the present.
Dreaming requires Belief. Belief requires Positivity. You cannot thrive in anything with a bad attitude. Dreaming also requires a clear intention. You can't just say "I want to jump inside a movie musical" and not have a plan and take action to get there. Example: I took 20 years of tap, ballet and theatre classes to finally get to star on Broadway in arguably the greatest female tap role in history. It was a dream that came true. It wasn't a movie musical, but it was as close as I could get in this day and age.
You also have to remember to Meditate (aka. Breathe). With breath comes life! Take moments to focus and center yourself and your thoughts. Because with dreams comes setbacks and failure. You cannot succeed unless you fail. It's just a fact.
The next skill to master is called Visualization. See yourself doing it before you do it. In full Technicolor!! Those dreams I had as a 5 year old were as real as ever. I WAS Kathy Seldon, I was The Green Girl, flipping a coin and dancing with Gene Kelly. It was really happening.
And you must feel joyous whole you visualize, feel the feelings of it coming true and you loving your dreams.
And then the final and hardest step for me is Letting Go. Don't harbor your dream or analyze it. Don't pick your dreams apart and figure out how it's all going to happen. Don't try so hard to squeeze every last drop out of them so they can't manifest.
Let. It. Go & Watch It Grow
Without all of these elements in place we cannot manifest what we intend in our lives. Dreams cannot come true. It is law. It is fact.
And this past week, with all my feelings of defeat and wonder....I am setting my intention to dream again. And dream huge.